Have you ever felt like you didn't belong here? Like no matter what you did and who you were with, you still didn't feel real. As if your friends were only people you would soon leave and effortlessly forget. Like you're in this strange transition between places. And your past is gone. You don't know where you are.
You have no culture, no shared memories, no past.
Everywhere you've been has forgotten you. Everyone you've met has replaced you. You have been to so many places and left so much of yourself there.
Memories, friendships, past.
And what if one of the places you crossed was the one where you were supposed to stay? Do you ever wonder how different things could be? Do you ever wonder where you might be, at this very moment, if you had stayed? Would you be happier? Would you be you?
And if you could go back and steer yourself in a different direction, would you? Where would you go? Aren't you scared it would destroy you, your family, and everything you now know? Think of the people you know, think of how much you would change them if you did. Maybe it would be better that way. Maybe not.
Do you ever think of these things?
I don't.
